JE DOIS ALLER OÚ?

I have never been in this kind of situation before. For the first time in as many years I am faced with the stark reality that life is extremely tough without cash in the coffers. I have already resigned from my job as a production manager of a medium-scale petrochemical manufacturing company. It took me 5 years to finally decide to quit the post and close this chapter of my existence. It was a month ago when I handed my four-week notice-letter to my boss.  

My stint at General Chemicals would definitely go down in the annals of my capriconean life. And now I am free and terrified. Je n’ai pas d’argent!!! I don’t have much money! Mais, Je dois aller oú? But, where must I go? What must I do??? The Capricorn bear Takeshi is scared. Well…. 

Scared as I am, I do not want to remain unemployed forever. I don’t want to be an added burden to
Santiago (my father) and Felma (my mom) too. They already have a lot of things to shoulder. They still have to support my younger brother and sister to a nursing school. Having another mouth to feed is not a welcome suggestion to them. They rather prefer me to bring something to the table and contribute for the groceries, utility bills, etc. 

It’s the holiday season. To be jobless at this time of the year is quite uncomfortable and unbearable. People scurrying here and there, doing last minute trips to the shopping malls looking for presents to give on Christmas day. Workers attend yuletide parties and exchange gifts while dancing to the beat of Willie Revillame’s BOOM TARAT TARAT and all. A jobless person like me is left with no choice but be forced to stay at home and pin his humps on the couch and suffer from listening to Willie Revillame’s BOOM TARAT TARAT and WOWOWEE. 

Of course people with no money will be forced to stay at home. But for me, I’ve been enjoying the last remaining days of the year both at home and away. The days have been fun and extremely rewarding. Most of the events were related to my exit from General Chemicals like the send-off / despedida, the last company christmas party, bar hops, house soiree etc.  

In just a few days, 2006 will be over. Mais, je dois aller oú? Well, in the next couple of entries, I will be able to come up with answers already.